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Dumb Gratitude

Dumb Gratitude
Do you struggle with gratitude? I sure do. I have haaated the topic. I have NOT wanted to have an attitude of gratitude. Even in elementary school I was a seven year old gratitude curmudgeon. You know the drill in elementary school. The teacher has you make a list. Every child is grateful for their mom, dad, the rest of the family, being born in a free country like America. And that’s where my seven year old self cynically coughed up toad-thoughts.  I thought I couldn’t’ tell my teacher and class mates. : I wasn’t born in America.  I was born in The Netherlands. Holland was...
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Thousand Yard Stare, Thousand Days to Heal

Thousand Yard Stare, Thousand Days to Heal
The thousand yard stare, in combat The hand to hand fight, in combat The day to day fear in combat Papa, Mama, daughter, civilians in combat The enemy in Nederland (Holland),  bursts in searching  for Papa Do not let your eyes to Papa’s hiding place Stare straight ahead — /Thousand yard stare The enemy in the Dutch East Indies (Indonesia) Bow low. Now. Or be struck lower still. Some never get up again. Family imprisoned one by one, First Papa. Next Mama and Children. Then all boys shipped and marched to other concentration camps Alone. Papa (my grandfather) never came back. Terror?...
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